I spent the week in Berkeley, the weekend seeing family friends. There's quite a difference between bachelor, recent graduate lifestyles and being in a house with very-to-kind-of young children. Either are supposedly okay at my age, and either are an option for me, I suppose. I haven't been good at addressing my needs lately, however, so I suppose I will hold off on the wants for awhile.
I also spent the last few days consulting on various relationships. I feel unqualified to give advice about anything, but maybe this is a sign that I at least appear to be holding things together. We are all more scared than we let on, I think, and maybe it's our one shot at sanity.
It seems as though there comes a time when you finally realize that there is no schedule, or plan, that's been laid out for you in advance. I can make lists. I can make spreadsheets. I used to be good at planning. But, it seems pretty futile right now. Not necessarily in a bad way.
Maybe we should all just plan to end our lives in a lasting embrace, and other than that, we'll weather the storms as they come. Then again, makes sense to purchase an umbrella ahead of time.
okay, that's really creepy because we watched this weird french movie i can't remember the name of and it ended with the couple kissing while being covered with cement! and they looked exactly like the picture you posted....
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Oh yes, I've seen that movie. Something with games or love in the title? I remember the English translation is different than the French title. Allison liked that movie; I think she recommended it to me once.
ReplyDeletesomething like "dare to love me" i think. we watched it at her house, which makes sense.
ReplyDelete"It seems as though there comes a time when you finally realize that there is no schedule, or plan, that's been laid out for you in advance."
ReplyDeleteYou said it, sister. I think this becomes apparent after you leave school. Nothing is straight forward anymore. It's not clear what we should do next. And then it becomes clear that there is nothing we "should" do next, only things we could do next.